Overweening Generalist

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Saturday, January 2, 2016

Books: Notes on My Better Reading Experiences in 2015

Readers: I have not been doing the OG much over the past year, my previous post being on July 23. The reasons available to my conscious mind are numerous. Do a search for "why I quit blogging" and one of the most-cited reasons is depression. I think I've had some of that, but I guess I internally framed it in other ways: frustration/anger/hopelessness. How does someone make money writing? Where are we going in Unistat, politically? To quote the old Stones song "19th Nervous Breakdown,": "Nothing I do don't seem to work/It only seems to make matters worse. Oh pleeeeeeeze."

But I hang in there. I teach guitar and music theory and love my students and most of 'em love me. I love doing it. I did it a lot in my 20s. Boy, have things changed with the digital world vis a vis music teaching!

Over the last six weeks or so, I realized: well, about five people read this blog (the numbers that Blogger gives you for hourly/daily/weekly/monthly/yearly readership seem infinitely corruptible; never for one second did I believe 683 people had actually read anything from my blog in one day), and when I did write I almost always wrote a "tl/dr" post. Apparently? Anyway, I realized, there was a therapeutic aspect to posting an article/essay/rant/whatever. Even if one person "out there" liked it and never commented, I guess I'm now cool with it. (I imagine that one Ideal Reader of the OG, btw.)

Moreover, I recall one of the writing gurus - fergit which 'um - titled a book Writing To Learn. And I bet it was Zinsser, but I'm too lazy to look it up and it's immaterial anyway: it was a way to learn. That sealed it: I stopped going on. I will go on. I...

So yea: books I read in 2015 that I really really RILLY liked...

Blood and Volts: Edison, Tesla and the Electric Chair, by Th. Metzger (1996)
Metzger's essays first showed on my radar in supplements to the yearly Loompanics catalog. As far as I can tell, he has yet to collect those in a book. He's taught college in upstate NY for awhile and I consider him one of the greats in the so-called "marginals milieu." He writes fiction too. (Check out Big Gurl. ) B&V is a gripping, well-researched and in-your-face look at the early uses of electricity in capital punishment. There are scenes that feel like Wm. S. Burroughs at his most depraved. These were liberals who wanted a more "humane" way to kill people. Because killing is just plain wrong, we're gonna kill ya, in the name of The People. Recent news stories of the "kinder" method of lethal injection and the specific, horrific ways it doesn't work the way rationalists thought it would might prepare you for Metzger's descriptions of the experiences (if you can call them that) of the earliest electric chair recipients. We also get vivid pictures of Edison and Tesla: their personalities and attitudes towards science, business, ethics and fame. Most readers of a blog like this probably already know: the two geniuses couldn't possibly be more different. I love how Metzger depicts late 19th.early 20th century American society and its excited misunderstandings of an emergent electrical world.

Acid Test: LSD, Ecstasy and the Power to Heal, by Tom Shroder (2014)
Journalistic, and among a sudden welter of books and articles in major publications about how psychedelics are slowly re-emerging after perhaps the most egregious moral panics of the 20th c. When I took this one home from the library and did a quick thumbing for index, structure, bibliography, style, etc: I was excited to note that a major section of the book was about Rick Doblin and his long strange trip trying to get psychedelic drugs back in the hands of researchers and scientists. And that part of the book delivered, for me: Doblin is one of the names that should be better known among those who consider themselves among what may be termed the psychedelic cognoscenti. But the interwoven story of the Iraq war vet with PTSD, and his treatment: utterly gripping. The descriptions of what this young guy went through gave me a bit of quasi-PTSD, and the only thing that would've alleviated it would be his ability to deal with life effectively after treatment, with a psychedelic drug, under knowledgeable, loving medical care. It worked!

Overall, the gradual acceptance that psychedelic drugs may have profound therapeutic effects seems to me one of the happiest of historical turns for our years, early 21st century. Know Thyself. Set and Setting. Sacrament. The Numinous and healing. A 2011 study revealed that one major psilocybin trip could make a person open-minded to new viewpoints and experiences for life. Let us weigh the pros and cons and the in-betweens?

Culture Crash: The Killing of the Creative Class, by Scott Timberg (2015)
I first became aware of Timberg many years ago when I read a feature piece he published in the LA Times, about a ridiculously erudite classical music clerk at Tower Records in West Hollywood, California. This book seems to have grown out of that piece and several others like it: the old business model for writing and performing music, poetry, doing architecture, cultural criticism - most of the creative arts - has changed so radically with the digital revolution that we're suddenly in a winner-take-all situation that seems unsustainable. And how some record store and bookstore clerks had been minor cultural heroes themselves, with tiny cult followings, simply because they knew so much and were tremendous sources for people who are into Their Thing. These clerks and weirdo-experts go away too, when it's all Amazon from here on out. Timberg is wonderful in fleshing out the etiology of all this, and has some compelling suggestions for how we get out of it. This book was written, seemingly, with almost all my friends I've ever had in mind. I do wish Timberg had suggested the Universal Basic Income idea, but you can't have everything...or rather: if you're trying to make a living doing creative work in the Arts, you can barely have anything. This book seems vital for those who have disposable incomes but who are only transiently aware that real people are behind their joyful cultural consumptions. The problem is: if these people thumb the book in a kiosk somewhere, it's likely to look like too much of a bummer, and they won't read it. It seems written for the very class who are suffering under the current dispensation. Timberg loves independent music, writers, weirdo painters, visionary builders. He really knows...more than you do about all these people and how they sought to contribute to culture. The book seems to function as: hey, thanks for reading, and I'm here to tell you I hear you. Maybe things will get better. It's very well-informed, empathetic, but  a bit of a reality sandwich for many of us. Still: I couldn't put it down.

Galileo's Middle Finger: Heretics, Activists and the Search for Justice in Science, by Alice Dreger (2015)
This might seem like a weird riff, but right off I'm going to assert readers of Robert Anton Wilson will probably love this book, which I think will prove to be influential in the sociology of science. Especially if those RAW readers liked his The New Inquisition: Irrational Rationalism and the Citadel of Science. (<---of course I'd say this, but one of the great underappreciated books in the sociology of science) Only Dreger is not taking on CSICOP, but liberal academics who attack other scientific researchers for coming up with data, information, journal articles and books that offend - in the widest sense - Political Correctness. I've long been fascinated by the late 1960s-now fallout around the cultural anthropologist Napoleon Chagnon, who famously studied and wrote an ethnography about the Yanomamo. From there: sociobiology/evolutionary psychology and the raucous campus backlashes from feminists, charges and counter-charges, how knowledges are constituted, the political ramifications of knowledge, the molten topic of what's "human nature," etc. And this is but one tendril in Dreger's story. For me, it's easy to see why the Right attacks science it doesn't like; what I want is a more balanced view: how do liberals react to science they don't like? The stories here are sobering. If you're fascinated by intersex folk and the political in-fighting among transsexuals, between those who brook no dissent from the line that "I was born in the wrong body" and those who changed sexes because they thought it would be exciting and sexy (I'm simplifying), here is a story for you. Or: what if your data shows that rape is not - according to feminist dogma - always and only an act of violence, that there's a sexual attractiveness component to rape? And that this data could be placed within the framework of evolutionary psychology? Even if you're a male feminist/liberal and know your data will cause great anger, do you deserve death threats? To get fired? All of the stories Dreger covers seem to violate this basic sequence: First: do good science and trust in your methods and data and your scientific peers. Second: we hope social justice will occur. If you get these two backwards, you may be in for a world of hurt. A captivating read for me, and Dreger combines her (rough) academic life with a journalistic flair. She's fearless, frank and I love her. Maybe some day I'll meet her.

Eminent Hipsters, by Donald Fagen (2013)
The brainiest and wittiest rock star book I've ever read. One half of Steely Dan, this is a short work in which the latter half Fagen describes in great detail what it's like to do the rock star tour when you're around the age of 60. The road, the dealings with different concert attaches, the poor sleep, whether to sleep on the bus on in your room, etc. And Fagen is cantankerous, if highly literate and funny. You understand why young rock stars trash hotel rooms, overdose, turn in bad performances, and act like ridiculous assholes: constant touring is rough on the nervous system; it tends to drive people nuts. And here's 60 year old Fagen doing it, making the best of it. There are short essays about taking LSD at Bard College, reading science fiction and Korzybski and the Beats, growing up in post-war suburbia, slowly developing musical chops and an esthetic. I hadn't ever heard of the Boswell Sisters, but Fagen sold me. Chevy Chase once played drums in a proto-Steely Dan? Yep. Fagen is, one of my musical gods: I love his composing and piano playing, not to mention that any studio guitarist who played on a Steely Dan record has...unworldly chops. To this day I go ga-ga over any lead break in any SD record. (Jimmy Page said his favorite solo of all time was  "Reelin' In The Years," which was by Elliot Randall; if I were forced to pick one it would be Larry Carlton's first solo in "Kid Charlemagne" which is about Owsley. Carlton's second solo in that song is merely great.) One last tidbit in this capsule quasi-review that kept me thinking for a long time: I have long had a very deep love-hate relationship with television, and Fagen's take on much of his audience addresses this when he uses the term "TV Babies" over and over when sizing up his audience:

"Incidentally, by 'TV Babies' I mean people who were born after, say, 1960, when television truly became the robot caretaker of American children and therefore the principle architect of their souls. I've actually borrowed the term from the film Drugstore Cowboy, in which Matt Dillon, playing a drug addict and dealer, uses it to refer to a younger generation of particularly stupid and vicious dealers who seemed to have no soul at all." (pp.98-99) This seems a pungent articulation for the loyal opposition, if you like what TV has done to you and balk at the idea that it was the "principle architect" of your "soul."

Ahem. Well. I see I've done it again: I meant to write about another 15-20 books, but the word spewage is probably too much for the Busy Person, so I shall quit for the day.

                                          artwork by Bobby Campbell

Thursday, November 22, 2012

I Get (Imaginary) Letters...

So hey yea! kiddies! Its time to open up the Ol' Mail Bag. Let's see what my phantom friends/fiends/detractors/slavish admirers have for the OG...(NB: a few of my correspondents seem to have zero clues about properly formatting their email Qs for me; the problem lies with them, not your humble OG.)

1.)
 Dear Overweening Generalist dude,
    A friend turned me on to your blog, saying you were all into Robert Anton Wilson and conspiracy 
    theories and the Deep State and stuff like 'at. But you hardly write about that stuff at all. Oh, there are 
    a few pieces here and there. Are you holding out on us? What gives?
    (Signed) Disgruntled

Dear Dis: first of all, get your gruntle back; you'll never know when that shit will come in handy, and besides, I'm not worth the loss of it. (BTW: what's with your fucked-up formatting?) While I'm truly fascinated in all that stuff you're fascinated in, and I have a lot to say, I'm not sure this blog is the place for all that, and besides, when I last looked, there were precisely 789 million other sources online for conspiracy theories and paranoia, really meaty stuff about the Deep State. The more I've delved into that whole schmeer the more model-agnostic I've become about most conspiracy theories. And then again the NSA came to my door and used vaguely threatening language about me even "thinking about" (one of the three guys's exact words) writing about what I know. But thanks for reading!
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2.)
Hey man: What's it like where you are? Here it's cold and sorta clammy, which is a drag because         I'm allergic to shellfish. (LOL!)
(no signature given)

Dear No Sig-
Hey man back atcha: I love jokes like that, and I thank you for sharing with me and not being...wait for it...shellfish! (HAHAHAHAHA! ROTFLMFingAO! Don't you love this Intrawebs thingy?) 
Stay cool, man. (Or, you could be a woman, in which case: you lucked out, eh?)
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3.) Hi. I really liked your piece on bumperstickers and how people feel the need to express themselves 
     "safely," as you wrote. I agree that the sorts of sentiments found regionally can tell us something 
      about the local semantic unconsciousness. - Publius

OG: Uhhh...I haven't written that piece yet. How did you read it? This email baffles me. I have 
        sketched notes for that piece, but it's nowhere in my computer yet. This really freaks me out,
        because I would have written about what you say you've already read from me. Are you
        mistaking me for someone else? 

Publius: No, I read the piece in Overweening Generalist from, gosh, I don't have my computer nearby...sometime in mid-December of 2012?

OG: Wha?...How are you writing to me if you don't have your computer nearby?

Publius: Brain implants, muthafuckuh! They rock! I think a thought and my iNeuron writes it as sentences? Duh! Of course, it still requires effort on my part to think, "Message to Overweening Generalist blog." So they have a lot of kinks to work out.

OG: What? Are you putting me on? 

Publius: Oh, no: I'm sorry! I forgot: you are writing before the time machines came in. I'm from 2027. I should've said that earlier. Sorry!

OG: Okay, I'll bite: if you're from 2027 and you've read a piece I haven't written yet, then how are we exchanging email right now, in my blog?

Publius: I'm not sure if I follow?

OG: You're not sure...? This makes no sense! You're freaking me out, "Publius."

Publius: Oh wow. Sorry dude. I was only trying to express how I like some of your pieces. Some of your other ones? Not so much...But hey: I'm no great shakespeare as a writer myself! 

OG: Ummm...okay, I'll grant you're from the future. Ray Kurzweil's most fervent admirers were right. But I still don't understand how we're conducting an email correspondence in "my time," right now, right where I'm sitting. Just answer that and I think I'll be okay.

Publius: They said we're not allowed to divulge that info, dude. But I swear, man: it's not a big dealio. Things will be okay, and btw: don't worry when they find something bad after your physical.

OG: All right: that's it! I'm tired of you fucking with me! I would like to politely request that you do not write me anything from 2027, as I'd rather just pretend the future can't be known. Humor me. Unknowableness gives me comfort.

Publius: Jeez-a-Louise! I'm sorry, asswipe! I contact you to say I like your piece and you jump all over my shit with a 15 year separation. Fuck you!

OG: Allright: I got carried away. I apologize. But can't you see that using a time machine can really freak out people from the past? By the way: how did they do it? I was sure Einstein's theory of relativity and all the other quantum gravity stuff and wormholes just were hopelessly unworkable.

Publius: Einstein's for schmucks! Do you know about n-dimensional tensile matrices and Gilhooley's theory of antimatter aggregates?

OG: Nevermind. Have a great day, whenever you are.
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4.) Dear OG,
     I noticed that, unlike bloggers who actually make money from their blog (and I'm aware of your
     rather unfortunate history with some clueless Puritan assclown d-bag from Google who scuttled
     your affiliate-derived income), you not only write far too much to hold the Average Reader, but you
     eschew the time-honored "5 Reasons Why You Should Do This and That To Make Your Life   
     Better" list-formula. Why? No offense intended. 
     (Signed) - SEO in Oshkosh

Good question. I don't do the listing thing for a number of reasons:
  1. I just think it's trite, and I'm a contrarian, maybe congenitally. Others would say I'm an a-hole, or worse: a hypocrite. One thing I'm not is a cheap Ironist, I'll tell you that!
  2. The List Approach seems so horribly formulaic I simply can't bring myself to stoop that low, and besides: it seems to appeal to that aspect of the quick I want it now I have the attention span of a poodle on meth thing in our culture. I detest what's happened to us. Did you read my post on long sentences? It's HERE.
  3. Furthermore, the List device violates my personal aesthetics derived from Nietzsche, Rorty, and (Groucho) Marx.
  4. THIS SPACE LEFT INTENTIONALLY BLANK AND REDACTED FOR NATIONAL SECURITY PURPOSES
  5. I'm frankly afraid - and I hate to admit this - that the listing technique, approach, gadget, whatever: it might become addicting. And I'm okay with all sorts of addictions, but this is one I will not do. Sorry to disappoint you!
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5.) Dear blogger,
In order to leverage user-friendly interest graphs to maximize social media feeds, I can show you how to synergize cutting-edge podcasting techniques in order to harvest the inverted output of crowdsourced, integrated models and reinvent a bottom up mashup to generate buzz and attract the most talent to your blog endeavor. (not signed)

Dear Robot,

Please watch the below video. It sums up my stance on your schtick really well:

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Overweening Generalist Becomes a One-Year-Old

Yes, a one-year old. And I've just crapped my blogging diapers, so I'll try to make this short (fat chance, baby!).

This post is the 183rd of my first year of blogging, or an average of one every two days. I started on May 6th of last year and tried to do the very thing all the Experts warned is not a good idea: writing about all sorts of topics. You're supposed to find a niche. Everyone knows that!

I'm not sure I can call the experiment a success (45,000 pageviews - counting "referrer spam" - in one year? some blogs get that in one day), and it might be because I did something else the blog-world cognoscenti (i.e, Experts) say is a no-no: my blog posts tend to be too long by far. But I've had fun, so screw the Experts. There's an essayist who has written a lot about writing, William Zinsser. One of his Thangs is "writing to learn." By and large that's what I've done here. Via some wonderful alchemical process, writing allows me to learn, and alter my own consciousness. Oh yes, and then I try to be entertaining.

I said try. Sometimes I can't muster my best voice here due to depression or anxiety. That's been an eye-opener. Other times I found I could pull a Nietzsche and write myself into an exalted mood. It's all process for me here...

I think I've defended my thesis quite poorly. Despite the easy-to-find encomiums from Experts that being a Generalist is valuable, I have yet to see any real tangible benefits from it that one might label extrinsic. I was running ads for Google Adsense, but they got pulled (and my accrued $30+ too) because I wrote about SEX in a way I still don't understand would reflect poorly on advertisers of college textbooks, Ron Paul, or some diploma mill somewhere. <sigh>

Being one's own editor can be a pitfall. You can't "see" your fuck-ups just after you've committed them. Often I only see my howlers, errors, typos, catachreses, etc, the next day or next week. Or never, so feel free to email me with a head's up on something you've caught. Often I'll finish typing a blog and put it online, and I'm burnt on the topic; I just don't want to read my crap and think few readers will either. So I probably miss a lot.

The intrinsic rewards of being interested in just about Everything seem considerable; I am convinced. It works for me. I just wish I could convince others. Others who'd pay me even a lowly amount to write as a Generalist. We are, despite what I'd like to believe, in an epoch dominated by Specialists. (To paraphrase Marlon Brando in On the Waterfront: "I couldda been somebody. I couldda been a programmah.") The Business Community largely dictates what work will be well-compensated. Writing has never been a smart career move. In the Digital Age, everyone's a writer, and it's been sobering to investigate which bloggers are making a living off of it. I can't say I'm surprised, but a deeper look has been suggestive of what folks who read blogs value. I have no moral qualms about it. Just another inane OG "observation."

                                              An overweening generalist, ectomorphic,
                                              sans locks, rare bird, ridiculous, pedantic, 
                                        "enthusiastic" in the 18th century sense of the word.

If you read this blog and like it, I really appreciate you and think you're probably wonderfully weird like I am. If I haven't met you yet in the flesh, I hope to someday. What sort of weirdo reads a blog like this? It's all over the place, it's too long, and frequently veers into pedantry, for which I seem congenitally at risk of falling into at times. I tried to address this self-consciousness of (sombunall)  writers - including me - in this blog post...

I owe an incalculable debt to a small handful or fellow bloggers. Tom Jackson has been far more supportive than I ever could have wished. We share a love of Robert Anton Wilson, and Jackson has pull as a journalist near Cleveland, Ohio, and I just got lucky. He's driven more traffic to the OG than anyone else. See his RAWIllumination blog. He's impressive in his knowledge of Science Fiction, he loves classical music - and other kinds, as I found via emails - and he's a sweet guy. One day we'll do beers together.

Following closely on Jackson's heels: Sue Howard of London, or parts nearby. Someday I hope to meet her; we've been writing about issues we have in common for years, sharing links. She's scary-smart and I always learn from and enjoy her writings and comments. She's aligned with many sites - or so I assume - but I'll just mention two: News Frames, which seems to elucidate George Lakoff's work even better than Lakoff himself, which just impresses me no end; and Anxiety Culture, which is a site that, when I read it, I want to take their writers out for beers, but we're 6000 miles apart in what we laffingly call the "Real World," so it'll have to wait. I owe you guys one. The subtitle for their site reads "How to Stop Worrying and Other Gimmicks," which made me literally LOL when I first saw it.

Annabel Lee of Double Dip Politics has been a valuable supporter; I get lots of looks at the OG from run-off from her site. She's near the Baltimore, MD, area and writes passionately and intelligently about Unistat politics and cares about, basically, the same issues I do, but I get depressed writing about that stuff, while she seems to revel in it. She's tough, takes lots of mean-spirited jibes from right wingers, and always treats them with respect back. I could not hang with that. She's got something I don't, and it might be called...courage?

Always considerate and with comments imbued with hilaritas, Robert Anton Wilson scholar Eric Wagner has long supported this blog and my writing. Thanks, Professor! See Eric's new blog Ask Eric. If you have any questions about poetry, I suggest you try Wagner; he will not disappoint.

I also need to mention Oz Fritz, Mike Gathers, Bobby Campbell and about eight or twelve others who emanate from the Robert Anton Wilson subculture. Thanks to anyone who has commented, even once.

The "Followers" (40 as I write this): I appreciate being Followed, but I have yet to learn the etiquette for how to - or whether to - greet, approach, or whatever the Followers. One thing I have learned from the Followers: I click on your pic, and I get "Other Blogs I Follow," and that has led to some wonderful serendipities! So thanks, Followers! Please feel free to chime in in the comments, if only to say hello or drop a non-sequitur. I love those!

Family members and a friend who won the Prairie Schooner Prize for Best Poetry Book of the year all have given me a variation of this, when asked if they'd checked out my blog: "It was way over my head." "I didn't get it." "That stuff is way beyond me." Etc. Which was sorta baffling and depressing, as I was actively trying to NOT be opaque. Another eye-opener for me...

Here's how I write the OG (not that anyone asked): I think, "I really should do a blogspew today," and make a list of four or six topics. Then I read my files I've collected on the topics, make notes, draw arrows all over the place...and then Something jumps out at me, and I end up writing about something else that wasn't on my list. Odd? Yes, I think I must be.

Finally...

Here's perhaps the most telling thing about a year of writing Overweening Generalist: How utterly surprising my Top 10 posts have been to me. If I recall accurately, seven of my top 10 were ones I decided to write on the spur of the moment, sometimes because I had just finished reading a book, or other reasons. The Top 5 are "runaway" posts: they "took off," and I don't understand the underlying logic of the blogosphere in this at all, at all. A few times I finished a piece and thought, "This is going to get some hits and generate comments; it paid to put in the extra effort," only to see the post fall stillborn and seemingly float off into the ethernet. Here's my Top 10, and you tell ME if there's any logic to it:

Here's my Top 10, counting down to my most popular post:
10. There Is No "Scientific Method"
9.  Meditation on "Paideuma"
8. George Lakoff and Metaphorical Framing For Occupy, u.s.w.
7. Remembering Robert Anton Wilson
6. Missing Public Discussions: Income Inequality
5. One-Eyed Shark Fetuses and Other Animal Wonders
4. John Von Neumann: Hungarian...Martian?
3. Max Ernst: Une Semaine de Bonte'
2. Epigenetics: The Revenge of Lamarck!
1. Free Sex, Free Love, Sex-Politics, and Neat Stuff Like That

To quote a 20th century existentialist: "You must go on. I can't go on. I'll go on."